Uncertain. Unpredictable. Unsettled. Undetermined.
-not definitely ascertainable or fixed, as in time of occurrence, number, dimensions, or quality.
I can't express it any better. It seems as if every aspect in my life has fallen under this category.
Everything to wondering if I'll land this interview with a job, to having doubts about whether or not going to Ogle in February is the best thing for me, to not really knowing if it was right to move my relationship in it's current direction, to being uncertain that the art I'm working on is good enough, to thinking whether or not I really like my hair being jet black, to wavering between painting my nails red or a darker red. It's seriously ridiculous, exhausting, and most of the time unnecessary. Why do I not attain the ability to CHOOSE, and be confident in the choice I make. I don't like how things are constantly hanging closer over my head every single day. And I'm slowly realizing I make them that way.
I guess now I need to literally sit back & let shit ride out but still take control at the same time.
But I'm not so sure how to do that.
